I'm worn.

Sometimes in life you just feel out of control. No matter how hard you try to take the reins into your hands, they are always just out of your reach. They sit there in a way that taunts you and makes you question how you have been living, thinking, and even breathing. "Maybe if I had just said this, done this, or did it in that way..." But that's hard to question because that isn't the way it happened. You don't have a do over. This is life. All you can do is hold on to what you have, what you know, what you believe, and have the faith and courage to just trust that it will all be okay.

Getting to 'okay' is the difficult part. It's the part that hurts, stings, and scars. It's the journey that produces the most tears, doubt, and questions. It's the place that makes your so exhausted, fed up, and just done. It wears you out and breaks you down. But once you are there, you feel the relief, the satisfaction, and refilling of pride. But that isn't where I am. I am not okay. But I will be. Somehow, someday, some way.

I'm tired, I'm worn

My heart is heavy

From the work it takes

To keep on breathing

I've made mistakes

I've let my hope fail

My soul feels crushed

By the weight of this world

And I know that You can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win

Let me know the struggle ends

That You can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I'm tired, I'm worn

My heart is heavy

From the work it takes

To keep on breathing

I've made mistakes

I've let my hope fail

My soul feels crushed

By the weight of this world

And I know that You can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

I wanna know a song can rise

From the ashes of a broken life

And all that's dead inside can be reborn

‘Cause I'm worn

I know I need

To lift my eyes up

But I'm too weak

Life just won't let up

And I know that You can give me rest

So I cry out with all that I have left

My prayers are wearing thin

I'm worn

Even before the day begins

I'm worn

I've lost my will to fight

I'm worn

So Heaven come and flood my eyes

Yes, all that's dead inside will be reborn

Though, I'm worn

I'm worn